Archive for May, 2013

Week 6. Making a commitment to our future selves from the classroom of our past.

I asked a question recently on  my private FB page

“If you could share wisdom with yourself 10 years ago what would it be? What commitment to your future self-10 years from now do you need to make?”

This is my answer. “I would share with my 10 year younger self that I did not have to put so much pressure on myself. I was so busy trying to figure out life and understand it all. I would invite her to relax and enjoy the mystery and that I could love all who she was and is; both her light and her dark. I would let her know she could simply trust the process of life. I would like to commit to myself in the future that I will learn to listen to my body more fully so that in 10 years we will have integrated the intuition of both my mind and body.”

I think it is good to reflect every now and again on our past, not in any way to cultivate guilt or regret but to forgive ourselves and most importantly learn from the past. I believe our past holds some clues for our future.  We can find great treasures in the past as long as we simply observe and learn.  We are our own greatest teacher if we are willing with love and compassion to reflect on our lives. Then if we listen with our hearts we will understand Maya Anglo’s wonderful quote “When we know better we do better”. If we are willing to learn from our past we can create a wonderful future. <3


Week 5. Walking theTalk

This morning I realized how much more I still need to do to move in the direction of walking my talk.  Luckily I have learned that we are human and perfection is not attainable phewwww! That was a relief when I finally gave in to that one! :)  On the other hand I also know that I have chosen to live a life that is always evolving.

“I am careful not to confuse excellence with perfection. Excellence, I can reach for; perfection is God’s business.” Michael J Fox

I realize my passion is living naturally.  This means many things to me; using as little artificial ingredients in my food, cleaning and personal care products as possible and living as authentically as possible.  Often it is said that those who chose to teach are the ones who need the message the most and this is true for me.  As a coach I am, teaching, supporting and holding a safe space for people to make changes in their lives.  I have the best job in the world because I get to be inspired by others as they step into new and exciting possibilities for their lives.

All that being said I love this new journey of discovery with my body, I feel more present and alive most days then I have for a while.  I am listening to my body more often and have created some wonderful spiritual practices that feed both my body and my soul.  However everyday life is scattered and I am not in a very good routine for daily stuff like housework, cooking, office work etc.   Working from home is wonderful for the most part but a disciplined day is hard for me but so much more necessarily.

This week it will be about implementing a plan for one afternoon a week for lots of cooking so I can freeze for “quote” fast food  :) .  This is so important for especially those crazy days when it is to easy to either not eat or eat something that is not nourishing.  Like the other day a big  bag of chips I had bought for my grandchildren when they visit! Also plan one afternoon for making all my natural cleaning and personal care products.  I tend to run out of things ( like face and body lotion 5 days ago  eeeek ) and then have to scramble to make some.  I want to honor my body and spirit more by being prepared and organized more.

Is there something you need to implement to make your life more organized and reflect more of your own values? Find ways this week to walk more of your talk.

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Week 4: Bringing Spirituality back to the table.

Most of us whether we have a weight problem or not are going through life without really feeling our body or the cues it give us.  This is true of emotions that we simply ignore or stuff away with food or when we eat long after we are full because we have lost the art of checking in to “feel” if we are full yet, or cramming in food with no nutritional value because we are “too busy”. There are many socially accepted ideas of the modern world when it comes to taking in nourishment and one of them is eating on the run.  All these add up to being very disconnected to our body’s ability to maximize its ability to create health and wellness even with the most nutritional food.

We are losing the spiritual connectedness of food and our body.  Most spiritual and religious traditions place a high value on food and eating practices. I believe this is  missing today. For example in Buddhism it is very  important to be mindful when eating.  We all know it is important to slow down but they take this deeper and much more spiritually. They believe that while eating one should reflect on the people whose labour it took to grow and harvest the food, to set aside any negative feelings towards others etc. We are also mostly familiar with the practice of saying grace before a meal. Many religions believe only in eating kosher food as a way of knowing the food especially animals were deeply respected before they consume them.

I am rereading Marc David’s book again “Nourishing Wisdom “.  In Chapter one  he writes “Placed within a spiritual context. The ultimate goal of any dietary philosophy is to take us fully into the body, and beyond the body. That is, by taking us fully into the body our dietary system must enable us to experience the maximum physical benefits of food-good health, the delight of eating, and the fulfillment of nutrient needs.”

We do not need to be religious to understand the wisdom of these practices.  Our digestion is best when we are peaceful and calm. Our body is made from energy and the food we eat gives us energy so it makes sense to create an atmosphere of respect and mindfulness.   We are not meant to eat fast while thinking about a thousand other things, or while watching TV or driving which many of us do( me included).  However I have in the last year implemented more times now at the table, where I set the table nicely with either a candle or with flowers.  I use beautiful dishes and begin with saying grace more often and then taking my time enjoying every bite.

Even with foods that are not as nutritious like when I crave a chocolate bar, (I do on my cycle a lot :) ) I do my best to eat mindfully.  One of my favorite ways to do this is with my favourite cup of hot herbal tea. I also buy a fair trade organic bar and eat it one block at a time!! Yummmmm, I savor every bite! I truly have come to believe that it is not just what we eat that is important but how we eat.

What can you do starting this week to bring more spirituality to the table?



Week 3. My True North

I know this for sure for me my weight is not the excuse that holds me back from fully being present in my life; it’s what the weight silently clings to that is the true reflection and reason for not living life to the fullest.  My life is wonderful and full even now but there is so much more I am waiting to step into.

Extra weight manifested on my body through the years as a protection of sorts; a way to bury the inner turmoil and pain.  In time I realized that these excess cells created containers to hold rage, judgement, self-hatred, self-righteousness and many other dark shadows that I was not willing to see at first.  These cells also contain feelings and emotions that when I was a very little girl was not safe to feel and got tucked away.  Over 25 years ago I began the journey of bringing healing and light to these one by one and even managed to release about 60 lbs permanently but somehow each time I would reach a certain size it  seems to create fear in me and I have been bouncing back and forth up 20lbs down 20lbs ever since.

I also came to understood that even the scale was a kind of addiction that somehow I was allowing to measured my worth.   I decided to weigh myself only a few times a year and have found this very freeing.   I have discovered that it is our innate intuitive inner knowing that is buried by so many outside messages from childhood and society  that our “true north” or authentic self becomes buried and essentially seems impossible to find.  We were designed so that our body knows what is needed to maintain health and wellness.  Sadly a multi-million dollar diet and exercise industry has been built around us and tells us to look everywhere but within.  Very few messages anywhere direct us inside to listen deeply to our soul and body.   In our bodies is the wisdom and ability to release weight by entering into the inner most shadows of our soul but only with the willingness to listen and act with kindness, love and compassion.

I have been now over 2 months focusing inward on this journey once again and this week was a true test as things came into my life that were a struggle, instead of turning to food I found myself staying really present to the feelings no matter how uncomfortable they were.  I celebrate this week that I chose FAITH over FEAR most times and have curiosity and compassion for the other times.  I am beginning to hear and experience once again my true North.  As I stay present to “what is” in my life, no matter what, I find it easier and easier to eat well and connect to my body.

I am spending most mornings now outside on Mother Earth in meditation an hour before sunrise and as well as qigong in the evenings outside most nights before sunset and feel more grounded again.   I am also walking 40 min at least 5 times a week.  My clothes are feeling loose once again and I am beginning to have more energy during the day.  I feel that my meditation, movement and prayer practice along with daily journaling is more important than ever to support me over the next while as I release the rest of my extra weight.  Inevitable I will reach that size again and fear may bubble up and this time I want to be ready.

What grounds you and keeps you pointing to your TRUE NORTH or your authentic true self?  You know, those times when we feel peaceful even when chaos is around us, when we act with clarity and integrity for our own well-being and others, When we feel comfortable in our own skin.   If it’s been to long since you last felt any of these, now is the perfect time to rediscover by finding  a practice that feels right for you. When we embrace these practices with our whole heart, make them a priority, they bring us back home, home to ourselves.

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